Psalm 32:3
3 When I kept silence [charash], my bones [`etsem] waxed
old [balah] through my roaring [shaagah] all the day [yowm] long. KJV-Interlinear
3 When
I kept silent about my sin, my body wasted away Through my groaning all day
long. NASB
One of the biggest sins,
is the disregard of ones own sins, especially the sin of disregarding Gods
mandates. Sin has a deteriorating effect
on both the soul and the body. Ignoring
it or disregarding it, perpetuates that effect.
The soul builds up a scar
tissue of sorts, when truth is rejected or not regularly taken into the
soul. This is called the hardness of heart.
Pharaoh is the principle example
of this hardening attitude.
As the soul hardens or is
closed over with the scar tissue of negative attitude, then it becomes
darkened. And when the soul is fully
darkened over, then the light of truth is simply blocked out.
The spiritual life is a
very serious business. All that you do,
or do not do, has an impact on your very essence.
And here the silence of
not confessing ones sins, which is to say, the silence or disregard of
accepting responsibility for ones own thoughts and actions, the attempt to
ignore them, the attitude that they have no impact on your life, the attitude
that you can do whatever, and get away with it, or even the sheer joy of
pursuing a lasciviousness or ascetic attitude, has ramifications that are not
good for you.
All day, means
continuously. When sin controls your
life, and it does when there is no confession, then the cost of that control is
great, it is deadly, and it is continuous.
You are controlled by either
your sin nature or your spiritual nature, and confession is the barrier that
divides the two. You are in one or the other. There is no in between, no third realm in
which you can exist.
Sin is slavery. The spiritual life is your only freedom.
The bones that wax old,
is the loss of life, the loss of energy, the loss of ones self.
The roaring, is not literal
yelling or crying, it is the soul and body together that scream out at the
deterioration of life, a deterioration that is stopped only by the spiritual
life. Thus ignoring the spiritual side
of your life, causes you to deteriorate in ways that you cannot see or measure,
from moment to moment, and if it goes on too long, then even in your latter
years, you lose the perspective of the realities of life.
You mix up facts. You draw wrong conclusions. You get so off course that you do not know
where you are, where you have come from, or where you will end up.
And the very sad thing
is, that each person does this to them self, through rejection or indifference
toward truth, as they stubbornly refuse to listen or learn what is truth.
